This is For All of The Happy Tears
The beautiful wet and joys throughout all of those years
This is for all of the happy tears
The beautiful wet
To celebrate how we knew each other better than anyone else in the world Remembering the day we first met
Your beard, your eyes
The twinkle in your soul
Your quick responses, your laugh
The first time I removed a nickel to reveal a bowl
Watching you experience so many firsts
Like your birthday when I woke you up at 4 am to take you to a surprise destination
You trusted me fully, were wide-eyed and bushy-tailed
We traveled by hot air balloon to watch the sunrise over our Arizona vacation
All of the times I asked you what your fantasies were
At first, you were shy
One day you told me you’d like costumes
I was happy to oblige
The time I got dressed head to toe in lingerie
Put on my highest heels
You were on a call with a client
I pranced in anyways — your attention was easy to steal
You gawked for a moment
Completely losing your train of thought
Snapping back to it, apologizing to the person on the other line
Watching you strain to sneak one last peek as I strutted out… I lived for those looks I caught
Your attention is what I desired
I always wanted to reveal my soul
I’ve probably asked you 10,000 questions in this lifetime thus far
Desiring to know your deepest thoughts as we grew old
Thinking of you makes me wonder
What are you doing right now?
Speaking of firsts
Remember the first time you let me pluck your “eyebrow”?
Inside jokes
Little games
Dancing in the kitchen
Sharing our shames
I could hear a million laughs in this lifetime
Still, none of them would drown out the sound
Your laugh forever engrained in my mind
Like the echo of your giggle as I sprinted with Zuko yelling “freedom!” as we left the dog pound
Whiteboard brainstorming sessions
After smoking a little weed
Remember how we’d ask to dab?
Signing with our own language only we could read
We would sit for hours
Discussing new plans
Some of them became our reality
I loved having you as “my man”
Still to this day
My heart dancing with joy
Seeing you play with a child or dog
Loving on our boys
Maybe there was something in the water
Why else did we love so hard?
Nothing was in the water — it was Kangen
One moment best friends, the next en garde
Fights came and went
Yet somehow love always prevailed
My head on your chest
I would tap my finger to share the your beating heart details
Thump Thump
Thump Thump
The most wonderful sound
Thump Thump
Thump Thump
Hugging you so hard we would tumble to the ground
I had no problem tacking you
Not because you were weak
Rather, you let me jump and love you hard
All of your secrets I would keep
Thank you for letting me love you
For all of the glorious years
Thank you for wiping the beautiful wet
All of the sad and happy tears
Your heart is expansive
With a perfect skin sack to match
I still know to this day if I jumped
You’d be there to catch
You’ve made permanent residence
Deep inside
Our energy has mingled
Our souls able to collide
Somewhere right now
I imagine you daydreaming
Hugging our son
Intentionally breathing
Breathwork sessions with you
Flowing through movement
Navigating through time and space
With each day becoming more fluent
A ride or die
Doesn’t imply always sharing the same vehicle
We are walking different paths
All of this strategical
