Thank You For Seeing Yourself Out
Thank you
For seeing yourself out
I wouldn’t have asked you to go
Thank you
For providing me your truth
Small glimpses have been shown
A lost boy
An inner child who never met themselves
A man shaped by small town and government
Told what to do for decades like Santa’s elves
I know the joy you brought me
An unending depth of presence when it was there
My favorite thing was eye gazing
And when you’d kiss me while grabbing my hair
It didn’t always feel equal
But it didn’t need to be
I got what I wanted when we were together
Everything except for you to see
See me
For the divine feminine I am
See me
For the lover and servant of your divine man
My presence is big
And we’ve started in different places
You were learning tactical shooting skills
While I was studying the brain and expressioned faces
I had to grow up quickly
Learn myself and navigate the world solo
You had a more relaxed childhood
Feeling adolescent still though
No need to hide to feel secure in privacy
Wanting to tell everything on a need to know
This isn’t the military, K
In love, all cards need to show
So one another can play the game
We get to decide the rules
All I wanted was a chance to play
Together deciding our fuels
What fuels us
Individuals and together
How can we stoke the fire
Then cuddle up in each other’s sweater
Enmesh
Entangle
Collide and interweave
Privileged to know myself
You’re still creating (not just learning) you
Now I must grieve
I love you, sweet man
More than you’ll ever know
I love you, K
May our truest of colors show
Take care of those kids
I know you will
Enough casual dating
For once, be still
Focus fiercely on the next you
I’ve already met him
Which is why it’s hard saying goodbye
I wanted to fill our cups to the brim
With support
With gratitude
With unconditional love
With transparency
With compassion
Prioritizing the collective above
It starts with conditions
Rules, boundaries, agreements
It ends with an expansive container
Clear as we unlock achievements
I haven’t written rhymes in months
You were my muse — both in ecstasy and distress
A desire to rough house and fuck
Cuddle, hold hands, and caress
No more
No more
Paths have diverged
No more
No more
How badly I wanted to merge
No more
No more
Now? I’m forced to purge
Right now
Right now
Engulfed in emotion, submerged
Soon to be
Soon to be
I’ll up-level, another surge
🤟🏾❤️🌀✨🍃
