My Ex Recon-Marine BF Gave My Chlamydia

Then gaslit me into believing it was from a pig during CIA medical training…

I wish we shared the same zest for life
Where you wanted to share like I do
Finn came by to ask about Amadeus
Billy shared that he’s talked to you

Well, that you reached out to him
“I don’t feel all that comfortable with you guys diving into that while I’m gone…”
I appreciate the honesty
I wish you were writing lyrics and focusing on OUR song

You’re more worried about how I relate to others
Than you are making amends
Less concerned with the action of fucking a woman in Colorado
More concerned with stopping me from having male friends

Isolating, separating
Keeping me from healthy dynamics
Worried about “sex vacays with bfs”
Instead of becoming a romantic

I’ve made a mistake from the start
Romanticizing us and your existence
Too enamored with moments
Ignoring all of the red flags and evidence

You said you were emotionally distraught
I held space for your healing
You wrote love letters to another woman
After visiting my family, unconcerned with my feelings

You cheated on me
Gaslit me into believing it was from a pig
I was ready to sue the government
When it was just your ego being too big

Big enough for you to save your dessert and eat it too
Dismissing the behavior with an “oops, mistake”
Then hyper-fixating on my healthy dynamics
Telling me not to eat my cake

Bye, boy, bye
Oink, oink, oink
I stayed with this behavior too long
Treated it like a small annoying toink

Well, it’s much bigger than that
For example… you’re willingness to go
After saying you were committed and willing to do better
Your truest of colors you decided to show

Uncommitted, unwilling to grow
Wanting to stay in your same pattern
Three strikes your out
Leave women alone — go live on Saturn

Nobody deserves to be fooled by your lies
You pathetic son of a gun
I hope you never break anyone else’s heart
I hope you show up better for your son

Harsh words… it’s ok if they hurt
You said you could handle pain
Or did you only mean ex’s abuse
Goddamn, does she have you trained

I could do what she does
Share words to rock you to the core
You said you’ve got thick skin
Not realizing how subconsciously you’re torn

Stuck between realities
Not even sure if this life is worth living
Let’s be honest it’s not when you approach it with lies and no integrity
Only when you make up for the tragedies by giving

Give your energy
Into following through with your word
Give your energy
Into being less of a smelly turd

I’m going to delete the playlist I made for you
So save any songs you want from it now
Let you binge listen to them and cry
Hum them with the next woman you plow

I’d like to sit down with our ex
Since we’ve been in a throuple this whole time
Your inability to separate the relationship
Affecting our every move, scripting your every line

So it’s time for me to write the script
Tell her a new story
Maybe negotiate with the terrorist
Helping her stop or doubling down on the court-driven glory

Glory of peace
Protection from harm
The things I’ve been begging my partner for
While he’s been fucking like a pig in a barn