My Desires Are Outgrowing

The Romantic Undertones of This Friendship

My desires are outgrowing
The romantic undertones of this friendship
I want to create a family of my own
A continuous unfolding of adventure with kinship

It’s been fun playing in your tribe
But it’s never become fully mine too
There isn’t room left to cultivate partnership
Time and energy resources too few

I want a baby
I want a partner who commits to me
I want a life of travel and being born anew
New faces and places I want to see

What if trying to attach and bond to what already exists
Doesn’t actually make sense for right now?
Why am I spending so much time watering
Seeds that everyone else gets to sow?

Why am I going to spend the next 5 YEARS
Only seeing a single love less than half of that time?
Am I selling short not finding a partner to have by my side?
Finding it cathartic to ask these questions in this rhyme

Why should I have to distract myself
What the partner is away
Why wouldn’t I find someone
Who is ready and able to stay?

Because I love him
That much is true
Blurring the lines of loyalty with desire
God I want to create something new

Am I young and dumb
Tribe has always been a little older
Always complaining about their responsibilities
Time occupied and energy colder

Done with the girlfriend
That time has run its course
Say our final farewells
Hold space for love with a different source

A partner to workout with daily
Who makes love to me when we wake
Someone who challenges me,
Shows me off, cooks and bakes

Time to shed another skin
Get more in touch with loving deeply
Requires equal energy put into an US
Someone to scratch my back when I’m sleepy

Someone to live with
Someone to play
Someone to dance with me
Making memories in new ways