It’s 3am and I’m Wide Awake

It’s 3am and I’m wide awake
Words from earlier ringing loud
How happy you are being alone
Telling me about your unshakeable cloud

You haven’t told me what you like doing with me
Or spent any actual quality time
Set a calendar event then talked to ex wife
Then laid in bed, left me wishing you were mine

Maybe it’s my karmic predicament unfolding
Loving a man who isn’t willing to love me the same
Someone who says one thing and does another
Has a “good heart” but with energy keeps missing the aim

Giving it to everyone but us
Yet thinking this cup is full
So quick to make an excuse
Knowing it’s all bull

Why do I get excited to sleep with you
We don’t cuddle or fuck in the night
Spent more time talking to an old friend
Planned to take care of him and his flight

Said you wanted to be together
Yet it seems like you want to be alone
Leading me on as wifey
Yet still hiding that damn phone

Keep your secrets
Keep your lies
No more keeping me
Say your goodbyes