Cultivating Divine Partnership Alone?

Internally screaming for your affection

Still a side character in your story
Right now your turning up with a friend
Didn’t invite me to be on that level
Feeling like I’m trying to fit in and bend

How do I fit into your life?
When will you want to spend a night with me?
Spending hours with everyone else
A Goddess in front of you that you just don’t see

What do I have to do?
For you to want to play together?
Have sex each day
Spend time kissing in all weather

Spending your time and energy elsewhere
Deeply wanting your attention
How can I cultivate divine partnership alone
Internally screaming for your affection

As you strut to fix, build, create with others
A quick hey from a side chick
I deserve more than a kiss between your walks
Ya’ll enjoying the fire I made without me making me sick

I’ll do the work
Step up to the plate
Get over my fomo
Try to wake up with a clean slate

Glad you’ve enjoyed another day with someone you like
Still wish you wanted to drink and talk to yours truly
I guess I’ve been living in a dreamland
Wanting to create together, get unruly

Practicing unconditional love
Means letting go of attachments
Wanting to get closer to you
But forcing a mental detachment

You are no side chick
You are central to my existence
Do you want to come and play?
Then why the distance?

I want you by my side always
How come you cannot see it?
When I’m working for others
Or drinking whiskey and I’m a little lit

Here’s your fire but where are you?
I’m sitting next to the flames but without your heat
You should be here I think to myself
But instead you are laying in a bed by yourself

Why I don’t know
Tired?
Feeling uninspired?
The truth may never show

I love you
Now I’m crying
Because I’m thinking of your smile
While simultaneously dying

Because the warmth it brings
Is like no other
No flame, no whiskey
No other lover